Hi Mum,
How are you?
Wow, so I’ve managed to not write to you for over a month.
I promise you I think of you multiple times a day every day.
It’s been a challenging month. Lots of fun stuff like Prue came to stay and we went and did Go Ape. Mike and I both had time off with the girls and we went to the beach and had days out.
We had our first Grundy camping weekend. We camped at Jim and Kiri’s. Apart from me getting trapped in the bathroom (of course it had to be me with you not around) it was good fun.
Our girls are loving their pony riding lessons
We went to the Herne Bay air show and they have played in the garden loads.
One of my favourites is their splat painting…..
A few things have been really tough though Mum, especially Grandma.
She’s deteriorated so much Mum that she no longer does anything for herself apart from put food and drink in her mouth.
She is now at a point where she will have 2 bites of her food and then spend ages wrapping up what if left in her napkin so they think she’s eaten it.
They are also changing her room and moving her downstairs. She keeps trying to get herself out of bed and falling over so they want to put her in a hospital bed with sides on it.
I don’t know what this is going to do to her Mum as she’s going to lose her en-suite and just have a commode….. I’m so utterly heartbroken that this is what it has come to.
She’s losing her faith in God as he’s supposed to be kind and she doesn’t think he is now because he’s letting her go through this.
I’ve had to buy her more new clothes as she’s lost so much weight nothing fits and as she’s changing rooms I cleared out a lot of her clothes yesterday. I thought maybe it’s easier to do it whilst she’s still here.
Today is my first birthday in my whole life where I will not get a card from my Mum or my Grandma. I feel so very sad.
The other challenge has been Mike and I. It’s been really tough Mum.
He’s been diagnosed with post traumatic depression and referred for counselling. I really think he’s needs it and it will help.
His temper has been horrendous and it would appear he has been getting attention from other people.
I love him so much though Mum and I’m desperate to make him happy again so we’re working on it.
We have had a great week this week with taking our girls tobogganing, going out for food, Mike and I going shopping and out for dinner just the two of us.
We’ve been bowling and out for more food 😃. We’ve just loved having quality family time.
In other news Vics is weaning Amelia, Joshua is on holiday and Si had a great birthday.
I so wish I could hear from you today X
I love and miss you loads Mum.
All my love
Pen X
P.s. Mike says he’s really sorry xxx
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