Hi Mummy Darling,
How are you?
It’s all been a bit crazy round here.
I don’t seem to stop and it’s felt that way since you went to sleep. I keep thinking that when I was with you was when I felt like I stopped for a while.
You would make me a cup of tea and let me just sit whilst you played with the girls. You would take the girls on a sat avo and let me have a break.
The crazy thing is I have Fridays now but I am yet to have a Friday where I am not doing anything!
Maybe I do it on purpose so I don’t have time to acknowledge you are not here but I just seem to be tired all the time.
Work is just constant at the moment, SO much to do. I’m not at the point of crying over breakfast every day but I promise you if I get to that point things will change.
I could do with your help with Dad. It’s great he’s met someone (I’m thinking you would agree with that). It’s just the whole story, I’m not sure what’s the truth now…..
I hope her family like him when they meet him this morning but I just feel so mixed.
At times I think just meet her and get the initial meeting done. I don’t want to not see Dad because we haven’t met her, if you know what I mean.
Another part of me thinks I can’t do it as it’s another thing to confirm Mum’s not here anymore.
Another part thinks I just can’t do it yet. I just keep going round in circles.
I suggested to Dad he tells each of us and says he would like us to meet her and then leave it up to us when it happens.
Training is going well for the half marathon, I looked at the route though and the last 2 miles is called ‘the hill’! I know I’ll make it round but it’s not going to be easy 😁.
We’ve got Peter Andre at the Royal Albert Hall tomorrow, it’s going to be strange going back but we’re getting the train hee hee 😄.
My girls are just beautiful Mum, they’ve all grown up so much since school started.
Mike’s in Butlins at the moment and he’s staying until Monday. I think it’s good for him to have a break and I am loving some time with my girls, it feels like I barely see them now.
We’re seeing the Grundys today which I’m very excited about, it feels like I haven’t seen them for ages.
Anyway, enough waffling on for today.
I miss being able to call you Mum xxx
Sending you lots of love
Love
Pen xxx