Hey Mum,
How are you?
Sorry it’s been a while, everything goes live tomorrow morning so I am just working as much as I can.
Don’t worry I hear your voice in my head asking me not to do too much but I need to just keep going for now, we are so nearly there.
Beth, Si and Imogen are here at the moment with Gerry, Nicky, Jo and Leighton, it’s lovely to spend some time with them.
We had breakfast Sat morn after the most amazing thunder storms Fri night and the girls we’re staying at the cottage for a sleep over.
I brought them all back for a sleep and then we went to Vics’ school fete. It was good fun this year, usual face painting etc and we actually had a go on the train rather than you running after it hee hee.
We spread your ashes yesterday morning Mum, it feels strange to think the last part is done, but it feels lovely to think all of you has been set free.
Dad played Eva Cassidy, Over the Rainbow which was beautiful and he read the words below…
‘When I come to the end of the road
And the sun has set for me
I want no rites in a gloom-filled room
Why cry for a soul set free?
Miss me a little but not for long
And not with your head bowed low
Remember the love that we once shared
Miss me but let me go.
For this is a journey we all must take
And each must go alone
It’s all part of the Master’s plan
A step on the road to home.
When you are lonely and sick of heart
Go to the friends we know
And bury your sorrows in doing good deeds
Miss me but let me go.’
It was really beautiful and Dad did a good job reading it out.
After that we were talking about memories, like you missing sunglasses lense when we were little, my hen do… I missed some of the others because I had a cuddle with Joshua and calmed him down π, check me.
A bit of Bowen might have helped :-D.
We then went on to the zoo which was lovely and good fun, I just miss you in everything Mum.
I hope you don’t mind that it’s not as all-consuming as it used to be. It still hurts and makes me feel oh so sad, but I do have times where I think of you and wander how long it has been since I last thought of you.
I promise I don’t love you any less and I miss you every moment of every day but I have some head space to think of other things as well.
This is great, I feel like I can cope with so much more again. I think deadlines at work are helping and I guess time.
Thank you Mum, thank you for being the Mum you were, thank you for being my constant emotional support (even when you had to share it with Mike π), thank you for all you taught me, thank you for all of your help with my beautiful girls and thank you for your goodbye, I’m so glad I was there x
Big day tomorrow Mum, go live day at 5am! I’ll let you know how it goes.
Miss you now and forever.
Love you Mum
Me xxx