I can’t take a breath…

Hi Mummy darling,

I feel like I’m struggling to take a breath at the moment, we have been SO busy for so long.

I’ve struggled to find time to write to you, yet I have needed you here more than ever.

I still find it hard doing everything without you but it’s easier to get on with it. If that makes any sense!

I still miss you terribly but I know you’re not here.

Here are the reasons I have had no time in the last 2 weeks:

On the 10th July, Chloe had a friend from school to stay, they had a great time.

On the 11th July, I did the pretty muddy in Maidstone with Gabs. It was still a giggle Mum and we got pretty muddy but not as much as last year.

   
 
On the 12th July, I had the great pleasure of running the Race for Life with my gorgeous Chloe in your memory. She was amazing Mum, running it in 34 minutes with me.

   
   
Work has been so busy in between. I am currently working on all of the web small change, 5 projects, recruiting a new member of my team and planning everything for main mailing!

I have also Mum, for the first time in years, had a little look to see what else is out there. We’ll see though x

Last Friday I had Isabelle for the day as she wasn’t feeing right and had been sent home from nursery with a high temperature.

I had already planned to go out with Jo and her parents so I took Isabelle along. We went to the big cat sanctuary, it was great and Isabelle was really good. She really took to Jo’s Dad.

   
    
We picked the girls us from school and I took them all for a Costa.

  
Pan the Saturday we had Dan and Kia’s wedding in London, which was lovely and Dad had the girls on his own Mum.

He’s been so great at helping me. They were all spoilt rotten and ate far too much junk food for my liking but they had a great time with their Grandad.

   
 
Then last Sunday, Chloe had Dax coming to play, so in true you style, I just invited Leo as well.

They all had a great time, playing with the super soakers in the garden and playing games in Chloe’s room.

   
    
 
Vics and I were talking about you the other day Mum, and how life has to carry on.

I know it’s what you would want but I still find it hard not having you here.

It’s like a constant full ache in my heart that gets suppressed with so many other things going on but is always there and every so often is a sharp pain still.

I missed being able to phone you so very much.

I still have situations where after phoning Mike, of course, you are the person I want to call next, but I can’t.

Anyway, in other news, we are off on holibobs next week. 

It doesn’t seem real that we are flying to Minorca.

Yes Mum, our girls are going on a plane next week, something you never did, by choice I might add 😊.

Lots to do this weekend first and I need to pack!!

I wish I could tell you all of this in person Mum.

I love and miss you with all my heart.

All my love

Pen

Xxx

P.s. Grandma’s doing fine and still going strong xxx

I am SO proud of my girls Mum

Hi Mum,

We have had yet another really crazy week.

I went to Madison’s assembly. She was so good Mum, she said her line really loudly and sang her wiggly worm song beautifully. She was more interested in saying hello to her friend’s parents afterwards than talking to me :-D.

In the evening the girls had their first disco. Rikki took them for us and I got to pick them up. They all had a great time Mum.

Last Friday was their first sports day, they did us SO proud.

Chloe had a photo finish on her race but they decided she came second but her team won the relay by a mile with Chloe running the last leg.

Madison and Abigail raced against each other which I didn’t think about. Madison came first and Abigail came 3rd so they both got a sticker. The final though was Madison against the other houses and she came 3rd and got a medal. Abigail’s team came second in the relay, she ran really well on her leg.

At the end of the day they awarded 6 chosen pupils with a sports values award and our beautiful Chloe won the trophy for Passion. She is so pleased.

On Sunday Chloe had her grading and is now a yellow belt.

We had the family picnic last Sunday, it is still strange not having you arriving to say hello to everyone.

Beth sent us a photo of Mog thoroughly enjoying her new picnic bench that has been painted blue.

When we were at Sissinghurst castle there were robins in the shop so I bought one to have in our backgarden. It’s like you are there all the time for me.

Anyway, just a quick update tonight Mum.

I love and miss you very much.

All my love

Pen xxx