Hi Mum,
How are you?
I am moving through the days at 100 mph at the moment it feels like.
Some days there’s so much I find it hard to breathe.
We had the school fete last Saturday which has been weeks of planning, of course on top of work and Mike and our girls.
I found it hard building up to the event (when I had time), knowing you aren’t here for it but honestly Mum, Dad was an absolute god send.
He helped set up in the morning and then dropped the girls at a bday party before collecting Sue from the station. Looked after Chloe and picked up the girls and stayed to help clear up.
It was like you sent him to do this so thank you Mum.
Just to let you know, Sue’s nice Mum. She’s nothing like you which probably isn’t a bad thing but she looks after the girls and more importantly Dad π.
It went really well though Mum and we raised Β£2,900 for the school. Not a bad start π.
Mike had his annual weekend in Butlins a couple of weekends ago so the girls and I went to Birmingham to see Team Mac.
It was really lovely to get away for a couple of days and spend some time with them.
The weather wasn’t great but we had lots of fun anyway and I took Mog her bench that Mike had built. It’s great Mum.
Coming up over the next few weeks is more craziness.
This weekend I’ve got London Friday night with my team
twins club summer trip Sat day
pyjama walk Sat night
girls bday stuff Sunday
Girls’ bdays Monday
2 class assemblies next week
Twins first school disco
Tash’s hen do
Family picnic
Pretty Muddy
Race for life
Summer holidays….. Which means we’re off to Minorca, with 2 weddings in the same week!!!
How do I love like this, it’s crazy and I’m tired already.
Plus you have to add Grandma on top as nobody else goes to see her Mum. I don’t mind, it’s up to them but I just don’t get it.
I love her as Grandma but also she’s your Mum, she’s a part of you that’s still here.
Helping Grandma for me means I’m still doing my bit for you.
I know I think bad thoughts sometimes Mum but at times she is too much to cope with on top of everything else!
She’s good though Mum and she worries about me doing too much, I just wish you had got that side of her a bit more.
I took Chloe to the finals for the Kent Infant Aglity competition yesterday and Kingsnorth came 3rd, they did so well Mum.
I’m always so proud of my girls, you would be too.
Mike’s building the girls a playhouse in the garden for their birthday. He’s really loving making things, thanks Mum for encouraging him x
I could just write and write and write as it feels like I’m actually talking to you when I write my blog, it’s so hard to make myself stop but I’ve got 2 girls awake and they’re going to wake Chloe if I don’t move them on.
I love and miss you so very much Mum.
You are in my thoughts SO many times, every day.
Sending you lots of love.
Pen xxx